It's been a couple of months ((again)) since my last post. Too bad I'm not Catholic or I would be saying "It's been a couple of months since my last confession". Have you ever felt like there are so many things you want to do in your life but you don't have the time to do it? I feel like that everyday. I seriously have a mental list. Sometimes, I have to take a moment, breathe and tell myself to take it one day at a time. There is so much I want to accomplish such has video editing, photography, blogging, dieting, parenting, being a better wife, becoming a true Christian, utilizing my kitchen more, focus at work, and complete my schooling. I just don't feel balance in my life. Does this make me a quitter or a fighter?
At times, I feel like a complete failure. I start things but take forever to finish them. Am I a quitter? My weight has been a slap in my face since I had my last child in 2003. I wasn't able to breastfeed and shed the weight like other mothers. I've tried eating less, energy pills, exercising, and counting calories. I couldn't stick to any method long enough to make any progress. My husband lost a lot of weight to prepare himself for back surgery (2yrs ago) and it was something we were suppose to do together but it just fell through for me. He lost while I gained.
My sister-in-law told me in January about a site called "My Fitness Pal". She and I were going to do it together. I was psyched. I've counted calories using "Livestrong" before but never kept it up so this was the time to start something new. On January 18th, I started my weight loss program. My goal was to lose 20pds and today I've lost 16! Just 4 more pounds to go. I'm a fighter.
I've come close to scratching dieting off my mental list even though I will continue to watch my calories. I never want to go backwards ever again. Dieting has kept me from doing what I love in the kitchen and I haven't been blogging lately. I've been wanting to incorporate meals that are low in calories in my blog but it's so hard to do when you eat the same stuff a majority of the time.
I still have other items on my mental list to accomplish. Coming close to completing one of them is just the beginning. I think to myself in 3 more months I'll be another year older, I've got two beautiful growing kids, a fantastic husband, a great job, and a wonderful church that I attend. I've got to keep fighting.
Thanks for always listening. There is more to come☺!